Monday, June 15, 2026

A Garden Story

I wrote this for a snail mail swap project with a theme of "writing about your garden." The photos were unwieldy for the email, so I've posted the letter here. Please note, if you want to see a bigger photo just click on it in the blog post. Also, I am in garden zone 9b (San Jose), meaning it rarely falls below freezing and provides a long growing season. It falls in the Heat Zones 7 or 8 (about 60 to 120 days of extreme heat per year). Because USDA zones do not account for coastal fog or ocean breezes, the specific UC Master Gardeners of Santa Clara County highly recommend checking the Sunset Climate Zones. San Jose is primarily Zone 14 or 15 (which accounts for the mild Mediterranean climate with marine air).

Dear PK and RR,

I joined this swap after reading the note of encouragement to do so, when it was made clear that having a Better Homes and Gardens quality garden was not required. 

I am, despite many years of aspiration, not a gardener. I'm the daughter of master gardeners who has made many attempts but lack the discipline to persist. At least when it comes to gardening. Below is a recent photo of my backyard. Typically in the summer drought it's brown (we don't water the grass, to conserve), and it grows hugely during rainy season. I mowed it once a few months ago after it was 3 feet tall, and drat, it grew again! A bout of illness prevented me from mowing again. Here is what it looked like until last weekend. We had several volunteer trees that had grown by the orange tree, and weeds taller than my husband on the side yard. (My husband has for years taken care of the front yard in an effort to not be a blight on the neighborhood, but he has no love for gardening either.)
It made a wonderful little meadow for many birds and lizards, but the grass that grows produces seeds with needle-tip points that catch on clothes. Ouch! Our visitors include raccoons, opossums, rats, squirrels, and neighborhood cats. Birds in my yard include Mourning Dove, Western Screech Owl, Great Horned Owl, Anna's Hummingbird, American Crow, Northern Mockingbird, Cedar Waxwing, Chestnut-backed Chickadee, Bewick's Wren, Dark-eyed Junco, California Towhee, House Sparrow, House Finch, and Brown-headed Cowbird. 

However, on June 4 (my son's high school graduation day), we had an auspicious visitor using our yard as a day spa -- a California gray fox! We live near the foothills of the Santa Cruz mountains and wildlife is only about 1 mile away. In all 16 years of living in this house, this is the first time a fox visited. 
He or she lounged in the yard about an hour. I've heard it said the foxes are dog hardware that runs on cat software. I hadn't known until that day that they (gray foxes) can climb trees and fences, as their wrists rotate!

Anyhow, I finally broke down and hired someone to come out and clean up the yard, and I will have him come routinely from now on to mow and blow. Here's what it looks like now and what was dragged to the street. And hope rises eternally in me. I can feel my aspirational gardener thinking, "Now that we've hired someone do maintain it and to help with special projects like mulching, trimming, and managing the sprinkler system, I might tend to it more..."
Even though I'm a crap gardener, I do appreciate flowers. Below are some photos I took of flowers in my parents' garden in past years. They are no longer alive, and I like to think their energy is now flowing into all growing things. 










My parents had many decorative signs in their garden. One was a quote by Ralph Waldo Emerson from the poem Hamatreya, "The earth laughs in flowers." The other sign was a stanza from a poem by Dorothy Frances Gurney: 
The kiss of the sun for pardon,
The song of the birds for mirth,
One is nearer God's heart in a garden
Than anywhere else on earth.
Wishing you a vibrant Litha and a joyous summer season!

Warmly,
MindfulOne/Kathryn

Monday, June 08, 2026

SoulCollage® Council Suit: The Visionary

 

I am the One who wonders and imagines about our origins. I enjoy the unknowable. I am the One who explores. I am the One who dances on the edge.


What is your gift or message for me?

The questions aren't necessarily meant to be answered; they exist to inspire wonder and gratitude.


What do you want me to do?

Meet the unknown within you.


Why did you show up today?

You are ready.


If you have a shadow, what would it be? Or, what light do you offer?

The shadow is unconsciousness. 

Saturday, June 06, 2026

SoulCollage® Council Suit: The Seeker

I am the One who is insatiably hungry and thirsty for knowledge. I am the one who is connected to Big Mind. I am the one who would sacrifice health for understanding. I am the one who values knowledge.


What is your gift or message for me?

The message is "You'll never know everything," and there are other ways of knowing. Stay open to all the paths. 


What do you want me to do?

Let knowledge embody you. Go beyond knowing in your head. Be grateful for curiosity and trust where it will lead you.


Why did you show up today?

I showed up because I see the Seeker in my daughter as a precious responsibility to acknowledge and nurture. 


If you have a shadow, what would it be? Or, what light do you offer?

The shadow is mistaking knowledge for reality. And the shadow is also confusing ego, or small mind, with Presence, or Big Mind. 

Thursday, June 04, 2026

SoulCollage® Council Suit: The Observer

I am the One who observes. I am the One who is the noticer. I am the One who is camouflaged and easy to miss, but I am always present. I am the One who records and speaks through the word.


What is your gift or message for me?

The act of observation and paying attention is an expression of love.


What do you want me to do?

Be the conduit. Write what you see and experience. Write what you think.


Why did you show up today?

Because you're ignoring yourself and you are ignoring your need to connect.


If you have a shadow, what would it be? Or, what light do you offer?

The shadow is confining yourself to simply observing and not giving yourself to expression. The light is the healing and life that comes from engaging in the total process.

Tuesday, June 02, 2026

SoulCollage® Council Suit: The Networker

             

I am the One who travels and plants seeds. I am the one who adds color, noise, and music to life. I explore new environments and find ways to make a nest anywhere. I am the one who builds community out of many different participants. 


What is your gift or message for me?

Every connection matters. It's fruitful to participate in the world. 


What do you want me to do?

Take more risks. Stop telling yourself that the world of your senses is too impermanent to bother with. See the value of the type of life the ego creates.


Why did you show up today?

Because you've been hiding behind spiritual ideas as a lofty excuse when it is really just fear of mess and conflict, and you are being called to change.


If you have a shadow, what would it be? Or, what light do you offer?

The light is that life can actually be a game and games can be fund, and you need to go and play. The shadow is getting wrapped up in superficial parts of the networks and getting distracted. 

Sunday, May 31, 2026

SoulCollage® Council Suit: The Mystic

I am the One who has a strong back, who knows that there are billions of windows to understanding. I am the one through whom the universe flows. I am the one who is being gestated. I am the one who is bigger than the boundaries others place on me. 


What is your gift or message for me?

That strength and flexibility can co-exist, and it's okay to be dizzy and overwhelmed by the unknowable, and to trust. 


What do you want me to do?

Practice stillness, opens yourself wide, relax.


Why did you show up today?

I am always here. It's just that you were ready to see me today.


If you have a shadow, what would it be? Or, what light do you offer?

The shadow is distraction.

Saturday, May 30, 2026

My Love List

 
I recently participated in a swap where the project was to write a highly descriptive list of things I love. I received a beautifully poetic one from my partner in China. I sent mine to my assigned recipient in Canada. I figured it would be nice to share it here. 

My Love List – from MindfulOne

  1. The several dozen different birds that sing me awake each morning. Even the damn crows, who start a ruckus at 5 a.m. Oh, and the owls I hear at night.
  2. Puns! I love sneaking a pun into conversation, the reactions I get. I love reading puns aloud, and I love that some of them make me laugh hysterically (especially “naughty” ones).
  3. Ribeye steak cooked medium is deeply savory and delightful. My husband cooks them perfectly.
  4. The redwood forest, especially the old growth ones, where I can feel the centuries in the atmosphere as I hike through.
  5. Taking walks to the local turtle pond; sometimes I see turtles, or ducks, and always the overgrown koi. Several times I’ve seen a wild turkey – one even flew up into a tree.
  6. Strong black coffee in the morning; black tea with honey in the afternoon.
  7. How I feel after I’ve done a strong cardio session on the elliptical or a hearty walk – strong, clear, vibrant, connected intimately with life.
  8. Ambient, instrumental, meditative music; folk music; eclectic alternative; trip-hop music; so many kinds of music that I listen to daily that helps me create and work.
  9. Losing myself in hours of flow when I paint, draw, collage, and write.
  10. I love my husband, who is my best friend and life’s gift to me.
  11. I love my child, whose existence has also taught me the importance of mothering myself, and who is also life’s gift to me.
  12. Chocolate, mostly dark.
  13. Baskin Robbins Love Potion #31 ice cream: a seasonal white chocolate and raspberry ice cream infused with raspberry swirls, chocolate chips, and raspberry filled hearts. I love especially that my local store orders enough to serve beyond February, into the end of April.
  14. Ben & Jerry’s Chunky Monkey Ice cream.
  15. Camping, seeing national parks, and big campfires that last late.
  16. Reading books of all kinds, ones that teach me and ones that entertain.
  17. I love babies; they are so fresh and innocent, having just emerged into the world; they evoke a fierce energy in me to protect and cherish, and it feels like connection with something holy.
  18. Sunny days and clear skies with enough cool to maybe need a sweater.
  19. Rainy days that wash the streets clean and feel cozy.
  20. Seasons: I grew up with experiencing four seasons and now experience roughly two where I live now.
  21. Dancing, especially something called Ecstatic Dance, which is a free-form movement practice in a safe space with no alcohol, no shoes, no talking on the dance floor, in order to experience the joy of being.
  22. Afternoon naps.
  23. Cats and rabbits (I’ve had both as pets); really any animal that is friend-shaped.
  24. Deep conversation over coffee with friends.
  25. Looking for and finding beauty.

Friday, May 29, 2026

SoulCollage® Council Suit: The Muse

 

I am the One who plants seeds and inspires your creative process. I am the One who connects you to the unknown; I am your companion and inspiration.


What is your gift or message for me?

Let go of worrying and trust the process.


What do you want me to do?

To find me you need to engage with me, so get cracking.


Why did you show up today?

You are folding in on yourself with worry, and I came to remind you -- you only have the present and creation is now.


If you have a shadow, what would it be? Or, what light do you offer?

The shadow is too many ideas at once which makes for distraction. The light is that you are part of creation. 

Wednesday, May 27, 2026

SoulCollage® Council Suit: The Hunter

I am the One who hunts and kills. I am focused, unsentimental, and purposeful. I hunt with intention. I am strong, lethal, and efficient.


What is your gift or message for me?

Sometimes life requires sacrifice. Life can require you to sacrifice your softness to do what is hard, even if it hurts others.


What do you want me to do?

This is a shadow side you avoid. Acknowledge it.


Why did you show up today?

To challenge you.


If you have a shadow, what would it be? Or, what light do you offer?

The light is that an ending is also a beginning. It is all of a piece.

Monday, May 25, 2026

SoulCollage® Council Suit: Mother Protector

I am the One who is a fierce protector of the vulnerable. I am the One who is a warrior mother with fire in my heart. I am the One who willingly confronts threats.


What is your gift or message for me?

Motherhood is not always tender, cuddly, and gentle


What do you want me to do?

Be strong with your child and for your child.


Why did you show up today?

Because you're finding mothering to be hard. You want your child to be different... easier, and more compliant. But that is not who she is, and she needs your strength.


If you have a shadow, what would it be? Or, what light do you offer?

The shadow is the desire to flee confrontation and conflict. The light is that love's fire illuminates what is needed.

Saturday, May 23, 2026

SoulCollage® Council Suit: Innocence

I am the One who lives boldly and gets messy. I am the one who resists growing up. I am the one who nurtures innocence.


What is your gift or message for me?

You are here to help others connect with playfulness. There's no virtue in growing up before you have to.


What do you want me to do?

Continue your path nurturing the school community and practice being empathetic with C as she begins to experience growing up awareness.


Why did you show up today?

Because C is changing and it's important to tend to her innocence and protect it.


If you have a shadow, what would it be? Or, what light do you offer?

The light is joy, and the shadow is immaturity.

Thursday, May 21, 2026

SoulCollage® Council Suit: Fortitude

I am the One who feels gutted and alone. I am the One who feels exposed, who is empty. I am the One who will take small detours to nurture others. Sometimes I find it painful to be here but I follow the road.


What is your gift or message for me?

Being exposed is no cause for fear; it is a way to connection. Pain is the idea of separation.


What do you want me to do?

Keep walking into the empty house. Keep walking on the road. Be in your body, and trust in wholeness. Love yourself. Cradle your heart.


Why did you show up today?

My filters are fragile. I'm worn down. Knowledge of Robin Williams' suicide has affected me, touched a part of me that understands. Because this part of me is strength and requires recognition.


If you have a shadow, what would it be? Or, what light do you offer?

The shadow side of this would be manic happiness, a denial of how hard it is to be here. The light is that I am still here.

Tuesday, May 19, 2026

SoulCollage® Council Suit: Fertility

I am the One who is fertile. I am the one who feeds the world and nurtures life. I am the one who brings color out of darkness and form to nothingness. I am the one who is energy, who scatters seeds of energy everywhere. I am the one who cannot be stopped.


What is your gift or message for me?

I still have life in me. I still can create and have power. I am part of eternity.


What do you want me to do?

I want you to engage. Throw seeds around and see what grows. Take the materials in front of you and make new life. I want you to be encouraged.


Why did you show up today?

To remind you that all droughts have an end. This is the end of your drought.


If you have a shadow, what would it be? Or, what light do you offer?

The potential for suffocation, overgrowth, obscuration.